why do you have to take away all the happiness with you when you went away.....you left me with nothing but sorrow but pain....i tried...i really do, to forget, to keep moving forward, but how will i do so without you by my side.when i cry there's no one that knows how to persuade me....i miss all those times so dearly...oh god, please...I'll trade anything with you for my father......i still remember how u were so happy when i told u i got to further my studies into foundation in a local university.....those happiness i could never see again, the kiss you always plant on my forehead i will never feel again.....papa, if you're reading this, i would like to tell you that I've been accepted into university to study medical doctor. i succeeded just like you once dream I'll be, but why haven't you come to wish me good luck, why are you not here to send me to my university like the last time you did, you kissed me and you told me to study well and to be the best....i did but why are you not here to see all of this....i want my papa....i want you more than i want anything in his world...if I'm brave enough i would have ended my life to be by your side....but I'm a coward who wish to live and to wait for miracle to happen to me......that one day I'll find true happiness but now i sincerely doubt wether that day will come.....because all that I've been through my life is sadness, depression, guilt and sorrow....god i wish i could end all this once and forever. Everyone hurt me, everyone hates me.....even if that's not true i feel it so....and even if tried to wipe those black spot in my heart, i still feel so empty, so lost, so ALONE....

Sonnet 116

From my point of view, i believe that people are forgetting things that are not supposed to be forgotten, such as classic literature. I know that your first impression after reading the word 'classic literature' would be BORING. But to those who truly understand the beauty of it, they will merge with it. I'm sure that all of you have heard of sonnet 18 by William Shakespeare but have you ever heard of the sonnet 116 written by the same man? with this note i enclose the poem and the meaning of each lines so that you too will get the whole picture of what it truly means.....and perhaps then you will change your impressions and by any chance start to like classic literature....like i do....


Let me not to the marriage of true minds

Admit impediments. Love is not love

Which alters when it alteration finds,

Or bends with the remover to remove:

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark

That looks on tempests and is never shaken;

It is the star to every wandering bark,

Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks

Within his bending sickle's compass come:

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,

But bears it out even to the edge of doom.

If this be error and upon me proved,

I never writ, nor no man ever loved.


Meaning:

I will not give reasons as to why two true minded people should not be married

I will not admit any obstacle or denial to them, love would not be true love,

when it changes when the circumstances changes as well,

Or it moves from it firm stand when one of the lover is unfaithful,

No that is not true love! True love is a fixed mark like a light house,

That have witnessed the worse types of storm, yet never shaken,

It is the guidance star to every lost ship that need to find it's way,

And like that star, the true value of love is unknown even though it can be measured by hearts,

Love is not fooled by time and by appearances,

Beauty falls within the range of time's curved blade, for as one grows old, one's beauty shall fade in time,

Love shall not change by hours of weeks,

But it lives firm and strong till the end of one's life,

If what i state about love if not true and it is proven wrong,

Then i take back what i have written all this days or no men has truly loved.....


This is just beautiful...it's one of my fav...i hope you like it too.....oh and by the way, i written the meanings on my own self.

I Saw A Reflection....

I saw a reflection,
Of a woman so lost,
Trapped in her own world,
Crying, screaming,
Yet no one seem to hear.

I saw a reflection,
Of a pair of eyes so blackened,
with hatred and rage,
And tear tear of blood,
Flows in an endless stream.

I saw a reflection,
Of a heart so wounded,
Like a shattered glass,
Silence replacing its lullaby,
That once sang with every beat.

I saw a reflection,
Of a soul so morbid,
Stained with hurt and grief,
Hovering restlessly,
In a void of skeleton.

I saw a reflection,
Of a face that stares back at me,
That's when i realize,
The woman in the reflection,
was me.....

by:
Sharinah Ibrahim
19 March 2011

The Physics Of The Quest....

"The Physics of the Quest" goes like this; If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting and set out on a truth-seeking journey either externally or internally, and if you are truly to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and you are prepared most of all to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself then the truth will not be withheld from you.....
Adapted from Eat Pray Love.....

Rich????........

Men, chocolate, coffee....
Somethings are better rich....^_^

Lost

A junior soldier who have just return from a war
was talking to a senior soldier who have been to more than
a dozen wars. The junior soldier said;
“It was my first war and I ‘ve lost a hand already, what did you
lost on your first war sir?”
The senior soldier answered;
“Boy, you don’t wanna know what I’ve lost,But I’ll tell you this,
I never reproduced anymore.”

~Sharinah Ibrahim~

A man is lucky if he is the first love of a woman, a woman is lucky if she is the last love of the man. -Charles Dickens