Sunday, July 17, 2011

why do you have to take away all the happiness with you when you went left me with nothing but sorrow but pain....i tried...i really do, to forget, to keep moving forward, but how will i do so without you by my side.when i cry there's no one that knows how to persuade me....i miss all those times so dearly...oh god, please...I'll trade anything with you for my father......i still remember how u were so happy when i told u i got to further my studies into foundation in a local university.....those happiness i could never see again, the kiss you always plant on my forehead i will never feel again.....papa, if you're reading this, i would like to tell you that I've been accepted into university to study medical doctor. i succeeded just like you once dream I'll be, but why haven't you come to wish me good luck, why are you not here to send me to my university like the last time you did, you kissed me and you told me to study well and to be the best....i did but why are you not here to see all of this....i want my papa....i want you more than i want anything in his world...if I'm brave enough i would have ended my life to be by your side....but I'm a coward who wish to live and to wait for miracle to happen to me......that one day I'll find true happiness but now i sincerely doubt wether that day will come.....because all that I've been through my life is sadness, depression, guilt and sorrow....god i wish i could end all this once and forever. Everyone hurt me, everyone hates me.....even if that's not true i feel it so....and even if tried to wipe those black spot in my heart, i still feel so empty, so lost, so ALONE....

Thursday, March 31, 2011

Sonnet 116

From my point of view, i believe that people are forgetting things that are not supposed to be forgotten, such as classic literature. I know that your first impression after reading the word 'classic literature' would be BORING. But to those who truly understand the beauty of it, they will merge with it. I'm sure that all of you have heard of sonnet 18 by William Shakespeare but have you ever heard of the sonnet 116 written by the same man? with this note i enclose the poem and the meaning of each lines so that you too will get the whole picture of what it truly means.....and perhaps then you will change your impressions and by any chance start to like classic i do....

Let me not to the marriage of true minds

Admit impediments. Love is not love

Which alters when it alteration finds,

Or bends with the remover to remove:

O no! it is an ever-fixed mark

That looks on tempests and is never shaken;

It is the star to every wandering bark,

Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.

Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks

Within his bending sickle's compass come:

Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,

But bears it out even to the edge of doom.

If this be error and upon me proved,

I never writ, nor no man ever loved.


I will not give reasons as to why two true minded people should not be married

I will not admit any obstacle or denial to them, love would not be true love,

when it changes when the circumstances changes as well,

Or it moves from it firm stand when one of the lover is unfaithful,

No that is not true love! True love is a fixed mark like a light house,

That have witnessed the worse types of storm, yet never shaken,

It is the guidance star to every lost ship that need to find it's way,

And like that star, the true value of love is unknown even though it can be measured by hearts,

Love is not fooled by time and by appearances,

Beauty falls within the range of time's curved blade, for as one grows old, one's beauty shall fade in time,

Love shall not change by hours of weeks,

But it lives firm and strong till the end of one's life,

If what i state about love if not true and it is proven wrong,

Then i take back what i have written all this days or no men has truly loved.....

This is just's one of my fav...i hope you like it too.....oh and by the way, i written the meanings on my own self.

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

I Saw A Reflection....

I saw a reflection,
Of a woman so lost,
Trapped in her own world,
Crying, screaming,
Yet no one seem to hear.

I saw a reflection,
Of a pair of eyes so blackened,
with hatred and rage,
And tear tear of blood,
Flows in an endless stream.

I saw a reflection,
Of a heart so wounded,
Like a shattered glass,
Silence replacing its lullaby,
That once sang with every beat.

I saw a reflection,
Of a soul so morbid,
Stained with hurt and grief,
Hovering restlessly,
In a void of skeleton.

I saw a reflection,
Of a face that stares back at me,
That's when i realize,
The woman in the reflection,
was me.....

Sharinah Ibrahim
19 March 2011

Thursday, March 17, 2011

The Physics Of The Quest....

"The Physics of the Quest" goes like this; If you're brave enough to leave behind everything familiar and comforting and set out on a truth-seeking journey either externally or internally, and if you are truly to regard everything that happens to you on that journey as a clue and accept everyone you meet along the way as a teacher, and you are prepared most of all to face and forgive some very difficult realities about yourself then the truth will not be withheld from you.....
Adapted from Eat Pray Love.....

Sunday, March 13, 2011


Men, chocolate, coffee....
Somethings are better rich....^_^


A junior soldier who have just return from a war
was talking to a senior soldier who have been to more than
a dozen wars. The junior soldier said;
“It was my first war and I ‘ve lost a hand already, what did you
lost on your first war sir?”
The senior soldier answered;
“Boy, you don’t wanna know what I’ve lost,But I’ll tell you this,
I never reproduced anymore.”

~Sharinah Ibrahim~

Thursday, March 3, 2011

A man is lucky if he is the first love of a woman, a woman is lucky if she is the last love of the man. -Charles Dickens
Any man can get a million girls any day. But it takes a real man to love one girl a million ways!

Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Why do god create men before women?

Becoz god needed a rough draft before creating his master piece....
Just a joke buddy....

Don't Judge A Book By It's Cover......

Well, just reading the title gives you the whole idea as to what i want to say.....but trust me you might have no idea, how it hurts to have people judge you trough stupid or insignificant your appearence, your silence, your lack of responses to idiotic things and even events that involves you to react in your own way.

Now, i don't really want to talk about appearances...coz i know that is universal and people are never going to stop judging that aspect even if you shot them with a machine gun, or run a whole bulldozer on them or chain them up and rip them into pieces.......coz all this years of my life, if i ever learned anything, it's this; appearances describe eveything that true nature, iq level or attitude cannot describe... for example, if a woman is beautiful but stupid and act like a total bitch....then she's very acceptable into societies and men would drool over them.....but when a woman is, let say less beautiful but intelligent and have good attitude, then she's just another one of those people who's best ignored or be tortured with teasings and mockings for the rest of her a world we all living in huh?....

Anyway what i really want to talk about is this.....your silence and your lack of response to idiotic things......people think that when you are silent or have lack of response to certain things, you are weak and they stupidly assume that they can step on your head and drive you crazy easily....but trust me this type of people are best left alone coz the thruth is they're not what they seem.....they're worst....and how do i know this?....coz i'm one of them.....certain people assume that since i'm all fragile and vulnerable, that i'm incompetent to do most things and i'm too weak to take a blow or face something terrible just because they assume that i'm what i seem to be...but babe, you get me all wrong.....the last thing you know about me is that i'm good at keeping thing to myself.....there's an inner thing in me that you'll wish you never cross.....i'm all crazy babe....and you don't wanna mess with the Sharinah...hehehehe...anyway...

I know the world isn't gonna change and so am i....the very least thing i can really do is ignore and act stupid.....but don't be fooled people even the nicest person has a bad side and the baddest people has a good side....=)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Something forgotten.....

For some reason I keep feeling as though I have forgotten something....something rather important to me, something that would have meant a lot to me....but it was lost...lost for so long that I couldn't remember when was the last time I've seen it. I keep asking myself what could that missing thing be...but even after hours of mind boggling, I still couldn't find what it is that I have so dearly forgotten. My heart sensed a new burden for as long as I do not remember it, my soul won't be at peace. Days and nights I keep thinking and I try to penetrate deep into my thought hoping that sooner it'll come back to me. But it was on a cold rainy night that i finally discovered what I have forgotten all this days. My mother's laugher. The woman who bored me for nine month have forgotten how to laugh and I have forgotten the sound of her laughter. It was as though she had buried it with my father. She smiled but it does not reach her eyes, she's happy but it does not reach her mind......but most importantly she's brave but it does not reach her heart. She used to be beautiful and young even though her age was pushing fifty....but within months, she became old...older than her age lets her to be.
I know she's alone, tormented inside and very much weak but who am i to change the fate that the god have decided upon us....i cannot bring my father back, i cannot travel back time nor can I make her forgot everything as though nothing happened. But there are things I can do....I'll put a smile on that face, I'll make her laugh again with all her heart, I'll take care of her just the way she took care of me since i was little, I'll build new memories with her that she can cherish for the rest of her life but most vitally I'll give her hope....hope that everything will be fine and someday we'll find our happiness in a whole new journey of life. That I will promise to you Ma.....Love you forever and ever more.